A tiny word that can make so many people uncomfortable, unsure, and stranded.
Till about yesterday, I was one of those people. I could have shouted it from the rooftops: “I hate change! Screw you, you mess everything up!”
I quit my waitressing job.
You would think I would be completely mortified at the fact that my only income is now coming from tutoring Japanese students in English……which I haven;t devoted too much time to obtaining many students (well that’s gonna change real quickly huh?)
But in reality……..I am SO EXCITED about this new chapter in my life.
Why did I quit?
Well, I worked a lot of hours, and it was usually my boss, me, and one other waiter. Every so often, my “manager” or whatever she is, would show up on random days I worked. She always gave me dirty looks, takes my turn when I should be getting a new table, and said rude comments to me when my boss was not around. And she put me down when talking to all of my coworkers. My boss, who everyday I worked would tell me how dependable and hardworking I am. But two days ago, at work, as soon as I get there, she tells me I am doing horribly and that I am so impossibly slow. I keep on working thinking it will just be another crappy shift with her, but trying to remain positive. At every turn she stole my tables that night while she also had a group of 20. (I usually have 20-30 tables a night….that night I had 6) I had volunteered to help her and she says in a malicious tone “I don’t NEED any help from YOU”. Since she was preoccupied with taking the orders of the large group, a table that had only been seated by her and obviously forgotten, were sitting there waiting…..and they asked me for some water. So i promptly brought it to them. But I didn’t take their order or anything because I didn’t want to take her table from her. About 40 seconds later…….it happens……………………….She begins screaming, cussing, verbally abusing me. Calling me “Stupid” and many other things, I’m sure you can fill in the blanks. Her reasoning? I gave her table water.
My boss didn’t witness it. But the other waitress did (the one who is still being trained, tells inappropriate stories, and can’t multitask…we will come back to her)
She yelled at me for a while. I am not one to feel too many emotions. I don’t believe in cussing, and I didn’t want to be confrontational. I did what I never wanted to do at work.
And had an anxiety attack.
I have never felt so badly about myself. It would have been different if I had severely messed up or something…..but there was no basis. She is just always so hateful to me.
About another hour goes by, and I am still there. I didn’t want to ditch my tables and leave them hanging…………I’m in the back typing up a receipt and she says to me, and I quote, because it will never leave my head
“Do you need me to do that?”
“No, I’ve got it” I answer
“You are so slow, even (other waitress name insert here) is faster than you (isn’t true…she doesn’t know any of the prices). HERE we do things a certain way. And with you moving so slowly, I’m gonna have to do your job like always! .”
She continues on…….spewing crap…..all of which is untrue…….she only worked with me like once a month………she has no idea how I work. She calls in the other waitress to laugh at me. And I walk out. I couldn’t take it anymore at that moment. All that night she had pushing me out of her way, telling me to move, giving me horrible looks, and when my boss saw me crying and I told him “I quit” he knew it was something she had done. Every chance she got that night she would come up with a new insult, find a new way to make me scared of her. My boss pulled me aside. He was so pissed at her. None of my coworkers could understand why she was screaming at me. Why she would say those things……my bosses mom hugged me and the guys in the kitchen were so confused as to why she would try to make me miserable.
My boss gave me my tips, asked what happened and when I told him….he understood. But he didn’t accept me quitting just then. And he said I could go home. And that he was SO SORRY. He felt bad he wasn’t there to defend me.
Yesterday, I went to my work, and quit. Gave my two weeks….which is really only one because I leave April 1st for Japan!!!
And THAT is why I quit.
I’m actually very happy about it though……sure I may not really have a steady income currently, but I’m excited about it ^^ livin on the edge! lol just kidding
That’s the good thing about living with your parents….not too many bills :P
I finish college in may, I’ll be in Japan this spring break, and I will now have time to do my TEFL cert. I also may have a job opportunity with my sister….but that’s on the D.L. right now ^o^
I don’t know why I was so worried about change……it’s a part of life, and I am just so excited for what the future holds for me! It was freeing to quit….and while I am dreading having to go to work tomorrow (Monday 3/23), Friday, and Saturday….. I am happy to be closing that chapter in my life. I want to see how far I can go trying to get more students and teaching and just winging it, Might as well figure it all out when I’m young and have the time.
Let’s do this!