I am one of the 0.01% of the worlds population that has had it. Which means I am what you call an “aphakic“
It means I am a person without lenses in my eyes so I have to wear special hard lens contacts, I also have 1/4 inch thick (at least) glasses I wear when not wearing contacts. And I wear reading glasses with my contacts.
It’s not something I like to talk about really, however, tomorrow I have another eye doctor appointment with my specialist.
And we will be discussing something that will HUGELY affect my life if I decide to go through with it.
My whole life I have been promised IOL’s when I turn 18. (Intra-ocular lens implants) >side note: now they implant babies and young children, when I was little they weren’t developed for younger children yet.
I am now 18. Which means if my doctor gives me the OK I can do it.
I went through the whole prep process before but it fell through because of me only being 17 and not being able to get LASIK after the IOL surgery because I also found out I have an astigmatism in my left eye. So I will need both the IOL and LASIK for my left eye.
I’ve been told that if I get the surgery my eyesight won’t be as good as it is with my contacts since they are so easily adjustable.
Have you ever:
woken up not seeing anything?
not recognized yourself in the mirror
gotten a migraine from wearing your glasses too long
taunted repeatedly because your eyes look “huge”
When I don’t have my contacts on….When I’m “blind” or even more so when I have my actual glasses on I feel so insecure. Like I want to just hide……I look down, my posture is bad, I can’t look people in the eyes.
I want to be confident always, like I am with my contacts on.
Well what’s the problem with contacts?
If you’ve ever worn hard lens contacts, (which I doubt few have cause I have yet met another person who has) you know why.
1.) they don’t breathe
2.) you have to worry constantly about losing them
3.) I have to wash them 8 times a day or more (no joke)
4.) easily irritated
5.) pop out
6.) have to carry solution, case, and glasses everywhere
So I have to weigh the pros and cons
And I have to make a decision myself.
I’m already at risk for glaucoma, and if I get IOL’s there is always the possibility of a “secondary cataract” and of course if there are complications I could go blind.
I won’t have complete vision for up to sometimes a year after surgery. I will have to wear a patch (kinda excited about that actually…..then I can talk like a pirate)
Of course I’m scared to death. But I think I want to do it. We will see after the appointment tomorrow though.
At 18…….I have to make the one of the biggest decisions of my life.
I’m just so worried if I do it, and I regret it
I’ve been promised this surgery my whole life. I have always looked forward to it…..but did I build it up too much? Is it blind optimism? (Didn’t even mean to make that a pun hahahahah)
If I lose my vision……I won’t ever be able to move to Japan…….so much weighs on one thing…..and that’s what scares me.
The picture of me is one I posted on Instagram……and that’s how aphakic groups found me. Mostly consisting of mothers of children who had or are still recovering from congenital cataracts.