I am one of the 0.01% of the worlds population that has had it. Which means I am what you call an “aphakic“
It means I am a person without lenses in my eyes so I have to wear special hard lens contacts, I also have 1/4 inch thick (at least) glasses I wear when not wearing contacts. And I wear reading glasses with my contacts.
It’s not something I like to talk about really, however, tomorrow I have another eye doctor appointment with my specialist.
And we will be discussing something that will HUGELY affect my life if I decide to go through with it.
My whole life I have been promised IOL’s when I turn 18. (Intra-ocular lens implants) >side note: now they implant babies and young children, when I was little they weren’t developed for younger children yet.
I am now 18. Which means if my doctor gives me the OK I can do it.
I went through the whole prep process before but it fell through because of me only being 17 and not being able to get LASIK after the IOL surgery because I also found out I have an astigmatism in my left eye. So I will need both the IOL and LASIK for my left eye.
I’ve been told that if I get the surgery my eyesight won’t be as good as it is with my contacts since they are so easily adjustable.
Have you ever:
woken up not seeing anything?
not recognized yourself in the mirror
gotten a migraine from wearing your glasses too long
taunted repeatedly because your eyes look “huge”
When I don’t have my contacts on….When I’m “blind” or even more so when I have my actual glasses on I feel so insecure. Like I want to just hide……I look down, my posture is bad, I can’t look people in the eyes.
I want to be confident always, like I am with my contacts on.
Well what’s the problem with contacts?
If you’ve ever worn hard lens contacts, (which I doubt few have cause I have yet met another person who has) you know why.
1.) they don’t breathe
2.) you have to worry constantly about losing them
3.) I have to wash them 8 times a day or more (no joke)
4.) easily irritated
5.) pop out
6.) have to carry solution, case, and glasses everywhere
So I have to weigh the pros and cons
And I have to make a decision myself.
I’m already at risk for glaucoma, and if I get IOL’s there is always the possibility of a “secondary cataract” and of course if there are complications I could go blind.
I won’t have complete vision for up to sometimes a year after surgery. I will have to wear a patch (kinda excited about that actually…..then I can talk like a pirate)
Of course I’m scared to death. But I think I want to do it. We will see after the appointment tomorrow though.
At 18…….I have to make the one of the biggest decisions of my life.
I’m just so worried if I do it, and I regret it
I’ve been promised this surgery my whole life. I have always looked forward to it…..but did I build it up too much? Is it blind optimism? (Didn’t even mean to make that a pun hahahahah)
If I lose my vision……I won’t ever be able to move to Japan…….so much weighs on one thing…..and that’s what scares me.
The picture of me is one I posted on Instagram……and that’s how aphakic groups found me. Mostly consisting of mothers of children who had or are still recovering from congenital cataracts.
Been talking to a teacher from my old high school who taught in Japan, got married there, and had his son there.
And he kinda boosted my spirits a little I think.
Gotta stay optimistic!!!
Researching more and more constantly. Apartment costs. Visa requirements. Schools.
Up next to research: tutoring fees in Japan, and the demand for pin stripers.
In other news…..I’m sad…..Japan is getting annihilated in soccer. I was sooooooo happy that my favorite soccer player Minamino Takumi from my favorite team Cerezo Osaka scored two goals over the Republic of Korea which ultimately won that game. But then of course….they had to play Brazil…….poops
Enjoy some pictures of Osaka in honor of the lovely Cerezo Osaka J1 League team!!!!
I’m reaching out to ALL EXPATS IN JAPAN that would be willing to give me some advice.
I have a couple questions that i would love to personally ask, and NOT just “google” them
I’ve read numerous books, I’ve looked at websites etc.
And on top of all that…..I know about 70 people currently living in Japan…..all of them being Japanese Nationals.
But who better to ask than actual expats who’ve gone through what I am right now
Here are a couple of my questions:
How much money do you reccommend saving before moving to Japan?
Do you reccommend applying for a work visa from your country of origin, or after you found a prespective job in Japan?
(If an English teacher….) What type of teaching job were you able to get with only a TEFL?
What type of visa did you apply for?
How long did the visa application process take?
Were you able to move to Japan BEFORE you were 20 years old? And IF SO, were you able to get a teaching job and/or rent an apartment?
Everyday that I go to school,
Everyday that I work,
I’m just that much closer
Everyday, that I am still in California I will continue to dream, but of course I don’t want to forget to live in today too.
I love where I live currently. It is absolutely beautiful and I try to appreciate it everyday.
It may be a waiting game, but I don’t get depressed because I haven’t achieved my goal yet….because isn’t the fun of getting somewhere the journey? The experience? The struggle?
I continue to work on my notebook of information.
I continue to study Japanese, learn more kanji, learn kansai-ben
I continue to save money, and I started a little cute thermometer chart for it. (Pictures to come)
So I’m not going to stress about not being in Japan yet.
I know I have friends there waiting for me. And I know I will be welcomed. So I’m actually very calm about it.
So, I’m going to enjoy this 80 degree beautiful, California coast day. Feeling the breeze, breathing the clean air, and look at some more lush trees. Because while I’m still here I want to enjoy it.
“be every color that you are”
This is amazing!!! Hahahahha yeah vending machines not allowing you to use 5 ¥ coins totally sucks. This is amazing. Especially since I love that peach drink!!
Originally posted on RocketNews24:
One cool thing about living in Japan is that, whether you’re in a bustling city or the open countryside, you’re never too far from a vending machine. True, you won’t find any canned ramen in many machines outside of Akihabara, but so long as there’s power to run one, you’re pretty much always within a few hundred metres of a machine selling both chilled and hot drinks.
We’ve seen some unusual things turning up in Japan’s vending machines over the years, but cans of peach soda with money taped to them is definitely a new one.
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Got back to the states August 1st.
I have started my third and hopefully last year of college
I have gotten a job
I am about to turn 18 in tee minus 4 days?!? (October 3rd)
I’m saving money to move to Japan. I think I will start a counter to show how much I have and how much farther I have to go. sounds cool right?
3 of my friends are coming to visit me here in California in a couple months
And I am currently compiling a very かわいい (cute) notebook full of things I need I know for when I move.
My Trip To Japan
I made even more friends, had a blast, learned a lot, and decided on the prefecture I want to move to…
And the winner is…….drumroll please!…….Shiga prefecture!!!
For those of you who don’t know where that is, it is right next to Kyoto and close to Osaka. Shiga also contains Japan’s largest lake: Lake Biwa (Biwako) and is known for their “Tanuki” statues (tanuki meaning raccoon)
I promise to post more.
Here are some pictures of Shiga prefecture….the letters spell out “welcome” we did it with fireworks (花火)
I leave tomorrow!
I believe my plane will take off but I’m not sure where we will land
Neoguri is moving slower than expected so we may be able to land at Narita but if the winds are too bad, we may end up in either China or Korea
Hey….but isn’t that part of the adventure?!
Everyone’s texting and emailing me worried about my flight. Messaging my Cosplay account on anime amino, fb, and I really appreciate it!
But I’m not too worried. We may get soaked but I don’t think it’ll be too bad.
I’ll try my best!
To stay safe that is lol
Ill blog more tomorrow when I’m waiting to take off!!!!
Neoguri (meaning raccoon in Korean) is a category 5 (as we would call it here in the states) hurricane/typhoon/cyclone
“the worst in 15 years”
It’s expected to brush Okinawa, and have winds with the max speed of 195 mph. And get less destructive as it makes it’s way north through japan, even being expected to hit Hokkaido.
It is supposed to hit Honshu (mainland japan) the Tokyo region on July 10th. And continue till July 11th or so.
Guess what day we are scheduled to arrive at Narita (Tokyo airport)….
We can expect heavy rainstorms. Landslides. Flooding. High winds.
So who knows if and when we will get to japan.
As if my parents and family and friends weren’t worried enough….let’s add a category 5 super typhoon on top of that.
I’m not TOO worried at this current moment. But I am starting to feel that little “pit in my stomach” maybe some “butterflies” or idk. But it’s definitely feeling real
Living in California where I do, the worst we have are tsunami, and earthquakes. We haven’t had any tsunami. Just the warnings. But still can be scary.
I’m not used to hurricanes or typhoons. Whichever you prefer to call them. But I’ve never experienced one. So that is a little freaky
I’m getting constant emails, texts, and fb messages about the typhoon, from people in the USA and japan.
What really sucks, is there isn’t anything anybody can do. So like all my friends in japan…..we have to just wait and watch the news. Won’t find out if we leave as scheduled until we make the 3-4 hr journey to LAX.
All we can do is just sit and wait.
Let’s hope neoguri doesn’t cause too much harm.